Monday, August 30, 2010

Things that make me fearful…

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I am scared that I’m going to wake up one morning and my husband won’t be there.

Or that we’ll be without a home.

Or a way to support my family.

Waking up to find out that I’m pregnant would also fall in this category. Which is odd, because every time I hear someone announcing that they’re expecting or see a baby, my uterus literally LEAPS.

I want to hold my own child so badly…

And yet, I know it’s not the right time.

But will it ever be the RIGHT time? With everything going on in the world, do I really think it’s a good idea to bring a baby in to the world, no matter when that may be?

I’m not sure… I don’t have the answer… and so every month around that time, I breath a sigh of relief. But there is always a part of me that is depressed at the same time.

There are so many things that make me fearful of the future… and it seems like there are more now than ever. I wonder why that is.

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8 comments:

  1. There is no right time, but there are wrong times for sure! I don't really think we can let the state of the world prevent us from having children. Each and every generation has thought the world has gotten worse since they were young and likewise wondered if they should bring children into such a bad place, but life is still good and worth living.

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  2. Awww... What an honest post. I've felt the same way. So much to worry about these days!

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  3. When it's the right time you'll know. But don't let fear dictate how you live your life. A very wise man once said "there is nothing to fear, but fear itself!" Live your life to the fullest and never allow fear to stand in your way. A child is an amazing blessing, and such a wonderful addition to any family. You'll be an amazing mom Jess, don't ever doubt that! And your little one can handle anything with you there!

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  4. I'm fearful of those things too except the pregnancy part ;) But only you can know the "right time" b/c there is no right time and never will be one...just the right time for u

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  5. I'm with you! I'm scared something will happen to my parents or my puppies. I'm scared I'll lose my job and not be able to find another one. I'm scared about what's going on not only in this country, but around the world.

    I'm scared of about alot of things, but there's also so many good things out there that I'm working hard to remember!

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  6. I had a lot of fears about starting a family. It is scary because the world is changing so much. And it is a huge lifestyle change for the rest of your life! There will always be reasons to put it off and and to wait I found but I realized I had to put my faith in the Lord and put my fears aside. I really believe that when we put our trust in the Lord he will make the difference-and I've felt that already throughout my pregnancy. Anyways-sorry for the long comment but I was at this point sooo many times:) We waited almost four years. Timing is different for everyone...and even though you won't ever feel completely ready, you will feel when it is the time to take the leap of faith:) Good luck!

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