I’ve done it.
I’ve resigned from the Board. The theatre that I’ve been a part of since The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe and through Noises Off and then joining the Board and working on publicity, I’ve severed the ties completely.
I worked as an usher on Sunday for the last night of the show. And that was good. But it was my last public act as a member of the Board.
I never quite understood what a nervous breakdown was. Last Thursday, I almost had one. Work has become VERY hectic and lots has been heaped on my plate. I know, I know I should be grateful that I have a job at all. Seriously. I do love my work. There’s just a LOT of it.
I spent two.hours on the phone with my mom, SOBBING. I was so overwhelmed with everything going on in my life right now! She was so worried about me that she suggested I take something out of my crazy schedule.
It was so hard, but the Board had to go. I don’t want to half-ass something. I want to be all or nothing. There wasn’t enough time in my schedule to publicize the theatre in the way I really wanted to – and that bummed me out so much.
As much as it hurt to send in my resignation, I did it, and immediately felt like a weight was lifted from my shoulders.
When I was at the show this weekend, a good friend of mine who is also involved with the theatre mentioned that she was thinking of taking over the publicity. She has since decided to do so, which I’m grateful for. She’s going to be great and I’m not worried about who is going to take care of the theatre.
Because I want it to do well. It’s one of my passions and I love theatre that is well done. And this theatre? They do really good shows! They deserve someone who can commit fully to publicizing and getting more butts in the seats. That’s what it is all about – getting the art to more people and changing lives with that art.
Today, I’m so sad that I’m no longer associated with a theatre and that there are no auditions in the near future. I’ve told myself it is a sabbatical from theatre. With all that has happened in the past five months and what is coming up in the next few, I need some time away from things. I know I will go back. I will audition again. I will trod the boards again.
Just not right now. Not yet.